One of the reasons that I was so excited about getting my BlackBerry was the ease of updating my blogs right on the spot. It seems that won't be the case for a little while though. I can update my LiveJournal without a problem, but m BlackBerry always shows an error when I try to update. With the BB browser, it says that I entered the wrong validation code. After I downloaded OperaMini, I thought it would work. But now it just times out when I try to log in.
So I will have to keep trying other things, reading forums until I find a fix for this so I can update on the road. It would be so much fun to be able to keep up with everyone's blog from anywhere. At least I can jazz from anywhere without a problem, so it's not the end of the world!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
PaperbackSwap.com
I joined this site a while ago but I just got around to adding my books to be sent out. If you're a reader, I recommend this site. It's a book exchange site. It's free to join, you only pay shipping for the books that others request from you. But for each book you send out, you get a credit to get a book shipped to you from someone else! I just listed 20 books and I have 3 free credits to begin with, and there are 5 people in line to request books that I have, so if those all go through then I will have 8 new books soon! Of course, after I read them I can re-list them to send out and get another 8 books if someone wants them.
If this is something you'd want to join, please comment and I'll leave my referral link for you! paperbackswap.com
If this is something you'd want to join, please comment and I'll leave my referral link for you! paperbackswap.com
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Saw this list on Jennifer H's Blog
Things I have done are in bold!
1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said “I love you” and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment.
39. Had two hard drives for your computer and a 300 gig external!
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love!
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Eaten fugu (pufferfish)
89. Had a one-night stand
90. Gone to Thailand
91. Bought a house
92. Been in a combat zone
93. Buried one/both of your parents
94. Been on a cruise ship
95. Spoken more than one language fluently
96. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show
97. Raised children
98. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds (45.5 kilograms)
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Swam with a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Ridden a bike
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life
Things I have done are in bold!
1. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
2. Swam with dolphins
3. Climbed a mountain
4. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
5. Been inside the Great Pyramid
6. Held a tarantula
7. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
8. Said “I love you” and meant it
9. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment.
39. Had two hard drives for your computer and a 300 gig external!
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love!
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Eaten fugu (pufferfish)
89. Had a one-night stand
90. Gone to Thailand
91. Bought a house
92. Been in a combat zone
93. Buried one/both of your parents
94. Been on a cruise ship
95. Spoken more than one language fluently
96. Performed in Rocky Horror Picture Show
97. Raised children
98. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds (45.5 kilograms)
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Swam with a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Ridden a bike
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one important author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life
Thursday, March 22, 2007
so ive been really bad about updating everything
Ice been worse at this blog than my other one. But ive sort of made it a goal to keep this updated more often now.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Taken advantage of...naturally.
Sorry for the long rant, everyone. But it's almost 11 pm, and I'm at my wits end. Ready to cry. I feel so torn.
I got the promotion at work. And I still want it, I'm still excitied. But only because I know that I can do awesome things for the store, and make it more fun for the younger kids to work there. I want to do that.
But I feel like the manager, my boss, is taking advantage of me already. When we discussed this promotion, we talked at length about my schedule. I volunteered one night a week. One. She literally giggled, she was so excited. She wasn't even expecting me to do one. So I got brownie points. And she assured me that, if I closed one night, she wouldn't schedule me to open the next day. Yay!
So I look at my schedule this week and lo and behold....she schedules me 2 nights. AND I'm opening the day after BOTH nights!!
So, here's my week. I worked tonight til 10:30, I open tomorrow at 6:30 am. School tomorrow night until 10:00. Repeat. So I literally only have 8 hours between shifts for the rest of the week.
Yeah, I know, I probably shouldn't bitch too much, but this is exactly what she said she wouldn't do to me. Plus, I'm in college. I'm supposed to be having fun. i still haven't gone out and celebrated my birthday with friends, because of work and school. My entire life is far too serious. I have nothing at all to look forward to for weekends, school vacations....I'm just not like everyone else.
I feel like I'm being taken advantage of already. I have no idea what to do. I'm on the verge of crying right now, out of sheer frustration. How do you handle something like this? Especially with a boss who I love....she's so sweet, so nice, and she really does treat each of us with respect and she tries to make our jobs fun. But I don't think she understands that I want this to be a part time job...not my life. I have Brent to take care of, school to focus on, and a childhood that is slipping away before my eyes.
WWYD?
I got the promotion at work. And I still want it, I'm still excitied. But only because I know that I can do awesome things for the store, and make it more fun for the younger kids to work there. I want to do that.
But I feel like the manager, my boss, is taking advantage of me already. When we discussed this promotion, we talked at length about my schedule. I volunteered one night a week. One. She literally giggled, she was so excited. She wasn't even expecting me to do one. So I got brownie points. And she assured me that, if I closed one night, she wouldn't schedule me to open the next day. Yay!
So I look at my schedule this week and lo and behold....she schedules me 2 nights. AND I'm opening the day after BOTH nights!!
So, here's my week. I worked tonight til 10:30, I open tomorrow at 6:30 am. School tomorrow night until 10:00. Repeat. So I literally only have 8 hours between shifts for the rest of the week.
Yeah, I know, I probably shouldn't bitch too much, but this is exactly what she said she wouldn't do to me. Plus, I'm in college. I'm supposed to be having fun. i still haven't gone out and celebrated my birthday with friends, because of work and school. My entire life is far too serious. I have nothing at all to look forward to for weekends, school vacations....I'm just not like everyone else.
I feel like I'm being taken advantage of already. I have no idea what to do. I'm on the verge of crying right now, out of sheer frustration. How do you handle something like this? Especially with a boss who I love....she's so sweet, so nice, and she really does treat each of us with respect and she tries to make our jobs fun. But I don't think she understands that I want this to be a part time job...not my life. I have Brent to take care of, school to focus on, and a childhood that is slipping away before my eyes.
WWYD?
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Ahh, the joy.
I made my first legal alcohol purchase this evening. Get this....it was at....Wal Mart. Yes, I really am that lame. I have yet to go to a bar or restaraunt. Instead I buy a 6 pack at Wally World. And here's the most fantastic part. Me and Brent were at the register buying, and the cashier asks for ID. Knowing the law fully well, we both hand her our ID's. She waves mine off, but takes Brent's. He's 25 and looks older...I look 16. So I have yet to be carded. So I don't know how waiters/bartenders will react to my "Under 21" license from MA. Even though it says "Under 21 until July 10, 2006", I'm sure someone will give me gruff for it. But apparently we'll have to wait and see for that.
In other news I am officially an 8.5x11 scrapper. I am in love with that size. I finished 3 LO's in one night, and I'm itching to do more tomorrow instead of housework. I even used bunches of chipboard and ribbon and buttons on the LO's, which I usually don't do. It was a nice change of routine.
Hopefully going to N. Nashua on Tuesday for a free crop. Have already posted on SJ about it for every Tuesday this summer. So if any MA or NH Jazzers are reading PM ME!!
I made my first legal alcohol purchase this evening. Get this....it was at....Wal Mart. Yes, I really am that lame. I have yet to go to a bar or restaraunt. Instead I buy a 6 pack at Wally World. And here's the most fantastic part. Me and Brent were at the register buying, and the cashier asks for ID. Knowing the law fully well, we both hand her our ID's. She waves mine off, but takes Brent's. He's 25 and looks older...I look 16. So I have yet to be carded. So I don't know how waiters/bartenders will react to my "Under 21" license from MA. Even though it says "Under 21 until July 10, 2006", I'm sure someone will give me gruff for it. But apparently we'll have to wait and see for that.
In other news I am officially an 8.5x11 scrapper. I am in love with that size. I finished 3 LO's in one night, and I'm itching to do more tomorrow instead of housework. I even used bunches of chipboard and ribbon and buttons on the LO's, which I usually don't do. It was a nice change of routine.
Hopefully going to N. Nashua on Tuesday for a free crop. Have already posted on SJ about it for every Tuesday this summer. So if any MA or NH Jazzers are reading PM ME!!
Friday, July 07, 2006
I got it! Woo hoo! There was nothing to it at all. The manager took me aside, asked if I was serious about wanting the job, and told me to grab a notebook and start taking notes for training LoL. It's going to be so exciting! I think I'll make a good manager. I hope I'll be the person that the high school employees will want to work for. I have one supervisor like that, and working for him is a pleasure. I think I will just model myself after him, and make people feel very appreciated for the hard work they do. I think that's the main ingredient that's missing from supervisors/managers that people don't like.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
I don't know if today could have gotten any worse. It was just so....so blah! And I hated it.
Exfept for this little part: My boss was putting up a sign today that said Now Hiring: Shift Supervisor. I told her I could do it, just gie me the manager code! And I was kind of joking around, kind of being a bitch cause I really should be supervisor before they hire anyone from the outside. Well, the other manager says I should apply, and then the big big manager says she wants to talk to me tomorrow morning, first thing. And there's a supervisor at work who has been teasing me for a few weeks saying I'm the next supervisor, and he's going to train me himself so it'll be like torture.
So I have this weird feeling that I was being considered for the job beforehand, but for some reason nobody had approached me. Maybe they thought I wouldn't be interested? Well, I sort of am.
It will mean taking on more hours, on top of school and a non-existant social life. BUT it will be more freedom in the store, more respect, more money, and much better experience for later jobs. I'll have managerial experience. That's HUGE when applying for jobs later.
I hope that's what the big manager wanted to talk to me about. I really do. I'm going to pray on it tonight and see where tomorrow brings me. I could use some prayers from everyone else too. Getting a raise right now would make my entire life a little more secure. Thanks!
Exfept for this little part: My boss was putting up a sign today that said Now Hiring: Shift Supervisor. I told her I could do it, just gie me the manager code! And I was kind of joking around, kind of being a bitch cause I really should be supervisor before they hire anyone from the outside. Well, the other manager says I should apply, and then the big big manager says she wants to talk to me tomorrow morning, first thing. And there's a supervisor at work who has been teasing me for a few weeks saying I'm the next supervisor, and he's going to train me himself so it'll be like torture.
So I have this weird feeling that I was being considered for the job beforehand, but for some reason nobody had approached me. Maybe they thought I wouldn't be interested? Well, I sort of am.
It will mean taking on more hours, on top of school and a non-existant social life. BUT it will be more freedom in the store, more respect, more money, and much better experience for later jobs. I'll have managerial experience. That's HUGE when applying for jobs later.
I hope that's what the big manager wanted to talk to me about. I really do. I'm going to pray on it tonight and see where tomorrow brings me. I could use some prayers from everyone else too. Getting a raise right now would make my entire life a little more secure. Thanks!
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Okay ScrapJazzers, be gentle.
Especially since I have no idea how to use this silly Blogger, I can't seem to make it format the way I want to.
Plus, I'm tired. So I have an excuse. :p
I think these two pictures of Duke are my favorites.He has the cutest expressions, and the bench he's sitting on makes an awesome background. He was such a ham!
Look at this silly face! I got tons of shots of him sleeping upside down, with h
is paws straight in the air, but they didn't come out this nice. So I'll save them for a rainy day. :)
Okay so I
couldn't resist putting just one of his sleeping pics. Just don't tell him lol. See the smile??!! It's like his life just can't get any better than this! About an hour after these pictures were taken, Duke was found waist-deep inside a 50 pound bag of dog food. Tell me he isn't the coolest cat.
And here's my little brother, attempting to run away from me. He was sick of my snapping away within a few seconds. But he ended up being a pretty good sport. He grabbed my camera and started snapping shots of me. They came out pretty good!
See? We have another budding photographer. He's such a cutie.
And I did have a ton more to post, but it's almost midnight and I must get to bed. back to work after a 4 day weekend. Ugh. :(
Especially since I have no idea how to use this silly Blogger, I can't seem to make it format the way I want to.
Plus, I'm tired. So I have an excuse. :p
I think these two pictures of Duke are my favorites.He has the cutest expressions, and the bench he's sitting on makes an awesome background. He was such a ham!
Look at this silly face! I got tons of shots of him sleeping upside down, with h
is paws straight in the air, but they didn't come out this nice. So I'll save them for a rainy day. :)Okay so I
couldn't resist putting just one of his sleeping pics. Just don't tell him lol. See the smile??!! It's like his life just can't get any better than this! About an hour after these pictures were taken, Duke was found waist-deep inside a 50 pound bag of dog food. Tell me he isn't the coolest cat.
And here's my little brother, attempting to run away from me. He was sick of my snapping away within a few seconds. But he ended up being a pretty good sport. He grabbed my camera and started snapping shots of me. They came out pretty good!
See? We have another budding photographer. He's such a cutie.
And I did have a ton more to post, but it's almost midnight and I must get to bed. back to work after a 4 day weekend. Ugh. :(
I'm on my way to fireworks, free food, lots of pictures, and a water baloon fight. And yet all I want to do is sit in my room and scrap!!! Argh! Why why why, when I have no time, that's when the urge is greatest!?
Oh, and yesterday I went to Hampton Beach. I have a sunburn, sand in my hair, I smell like dead fish, but I got a million beautiful pics. And a 50$ ticket. Oops.
Oh, and yesterday I went to Hampton Beach. I have a sunburn, sand in my hair, I smell like dead fish, but I got a million beautiful pics. And a 50$ ticket. Oops.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Got GIMP??
I do. If I happen to get lots of free time this summer, I see nothing but bad, bad things happening lol. Downloaded some free 2peas kits. Learned layers basics. Uh oh. This might not be a good thing lol. If only BG made digi papers....ahhh, life would be good.
Oh, and I'm pretty sure I scored the sweetest deal ever today. Got an 8x8 Colorbok album with a cs/pp/punchout pack for 7$. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't those coordinated punchout packs typically 9-10$?? Yeah, I think they are. So, I bought 2. Naturally.
And now I'm off to learn opacity.
I do. If I happen to get lots of free time this summer, I see nothing but bad, bad things happening lol. Downloaded some free 2peas kits. Learned layers basics. Uh oh. This might not be a good thing lol. If only BG made digi papers....ahhh, life would be good.
Oh, and I'm pretty sure I scored the sweetest deal ever today. Got an 8x8 Colorbok album with a cs/pp/punchout pack for 7$. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but aren't those coordinated punchout packs typically 9-10$?? Yeah, I think they are. So, I bought 2. Naturally.
And now I'm off to learn opacity.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
This morning is so awkward!
I stayed up until 3 am crying because Brent is a complete ass. Complete. Now I have to sit in the same house as him without throwing things at him. Totally weird. And, in typical fashion, he is acting like somehow I'm at fault? Okee dokee then. I swear he PMSes half the month.
Oh yeah, there he goes, totally slamming the drawers, and he definitely just threw a loaf of bread? Yeah, because that's manly and solves problems.
Are all men this ridiculous?
I stayed up until 3 am crying because Brent is a complete ass. Complete. Now I have to sit in the same house as him without throwing things at him. Totally weird. And, in typical fashion, he is acting like somehow I'm at fault? Okee dokee then. I swear he PMSes half the month.
Oh yeah, there he goes, totally slamming the drawers, and he definitely just threw a loaf of bread? Yeah, because that's manly and solves problems.
Are all men this ridiculous?
Saturday, June 24, 2006
AC Moore has 8.5x11 cardstock on sale for 6 cents a sheet. Regularly 20 cents.
I don't need more. I don't need more. I don't, I don't, I don't.
But then I can't help but think of all the different shades of every color that I don't have. They carry 100 different colors. There's no way I have them all. And at 6 cents a sheet, I can afford to have them all, right? If I buy one sheet of every colorm that's....6$. I can afford 12 or 18$, right?
I am SUCH a paper junkie!
Argh!
I don't need more. I don't need more. I don't, I don't, I don't.
But then I can't help but think of all the different shades of every color that I don't have. They carry 100 different colors. There's no way I have them all. And at 6 cents a sheet, I can afford to have them all, right? If I buy one sheet of every colorm that's....6$. I can afford 12 or 18$, right?
I am SUCH a paper junkie!
Argh!
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Saturday, June 17, 2006
I have been on a creating spree, and I think I love it.
On Wednesday, I had a few hours between work and school, so I made a gift album for a co-worker's retirement. 8x8, 20 pages , in under 4 hours. And I must say, each page was uniquely designed, and very pretty. I was proud of it. I wish I had taken pictures of it to keep, but there wasn't enough time. I had to bring it to work to have everyone sign that afternoon.
I've also started my own version of the "She" albums that everyone is crazy about. I'm not familiar with the "official" way of doing it, but I do know that it's an album based on "She..." statements. So I'm making my own, and it will be a tribute to all the amazing women in my life who remind me how awesome life is.
I can't seem to get away from my scrap desk today, and I love love love it!
I did have to get away long enough to let NTB rape my wallet. Yes, I said rape my wallet. I just paid 320$ for front brakes on my car. But they were desperately needed. As in, I was driving a car that almost wouldn't stop for red lights. Never mind an emergency situation. So I'm glad it's done, I'll just be feeling the financial effects for a few weeks.
Speaking of financial, talked to Brent today about my birthday present. I put a deal out on the table. I will save portionf of my paycheck for the next few weeks and save up a nice chunk of $$$. I will take the tattoo money that my roomate was going to give me and add it to my saved money. And then, he and anyone else who is interested will chip in the rest....
AND I WILL HAVE MY REBEL!!!!!!!
Oh I can't wait. It's only fair that I get a nice big present for myself. He got his 42'' monster TV and an XBos360. The XBox was admittedly a gift from me, but it still counts. He got his two expensive purchases, I think it's my turn. And if I save up slowly rather than put it on my credit card, it won't hurt the wallet nearly as much.
That's all for now. I'm off to my desk again for a bit, at least until 9 when I get to lurk around in the crazy SJ chat.
On Wednesday, I had a few hours between work and school, so I made a gift album for a co-worker's retirement. 8x8, 20 pages , in under 4 hours. And I must say, each page was uniquely designed, and very pretty. I was proud of it. I wish I had taken pictures of it to keep, but there wasn't enough time. I had to bring it to work to have everyone sign that afternoon.
I've also started my own version of the "She" albums that everyone is crazy about. I'm not familiar with the "official" way of doing it, but I do know that it's an album based on "She..." statements. So I'm making my own, and it will be a tribute to all the amazing women in my life who remind me how awesome life is.
I can't seem to get away from my scrap desk today, and I love love love it!
I did have to get away long enough to let NTB rape my wallet. Yes, I said rape my wallet. I just paid 320$ for front brakes on my car. But they were desperately needed. As in, I was driving a car that almost wouldn't stop for red lights. Never mind an emergency situation. So I'm glad it's done, I'll just be feeling the financial effects for a few weeks.
Speaking of financial, talked to Brent today about my birthday present. I put a deal out on the table. I will save portionf of my paycheck for the next few weeks and save up a nice chunk of $$$. I will take the tattoo money that my roomate was going to give me and add it to my saved money. And then, he and anyone else who is interested will chip in the rest....
AND I WILL HAVE MY REBEL!!!!!!!
Oh I can't wait. It's only fair that I get a nice big present for myself. He got his 42'' monster TV and an XBos360. The XBox was admittedly a gift from me, but it still counts. He got his two expensive purchases, I think it's my turn. And if I save up slowly rather than put it on my credit card, it won't hurt the wallet nearly as much.
That's all for now. I'm off to my desk again for a bit, at least until 9 when I get to lurk around in the crazy SJ chat.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
The Curse of Eve: Woman will forever settle
We will settle with our jobs. Our health. Our living arrangements. Our hours. Our pay. Our dinner menus. Our cars. All for the happiness of others. We will go without so that someone else may have.
But why do we settle with our men? Nobody else gains in that situation.
Every one of us that goes to bed thinking "Is this it?" KNOWS that this isn't it. There IS something better out there. But still we settle. For today or for ten years. We don't do for ourselves.
I have been robbed of every romantic movie moment I can imagine. Robbed of the perfect prom. Robbed of laying on the hood of my T-Bird under the stars at the beach. Robbed of driving nowhere, going nowhere, having fun. Robbed of giggling and love notes. I have been robbed of heartfelt talks late at night about naming the children, putting them on the schoolbus for the first time.
I have been robbed of fairytale dreams and happy endings. I no longer believe in soulmates or true love. I don't think I'll ever be emotionally fulfilled. I don't believe that happiness comes to those who work for it, because my work has yet to pay off.
And why? Who gains? Not me. It's not like giving up the last piece of cake so that someone else can enjoy it more. It's not like sacrificing your swollen and aching feet for another day at work, so we can afford the expensive steaks that he likes.
It's sacrifice for nothing. I can see my life 10 years from now. No emotional growth, no shared spiritual experience. No nothing. Just bills, children, and parent-teacher night.
I don't believe in fairy tale love anymore. I don't believe in drive-in movies or homemade pancakes in bed on Sunday morning. I don't believe in sneaking kisses at Gramma's house on Christmas. I don't believe in whispering under the covers.
I believe that I have settled. And I don't think I will forgive myself.
So why do I let myself?
We will settle with our jobs. Our health. Our living arrangements. Our hours. Our pay. Our dinner menus. Our cars. All for the happiness of others. We will go without so that someone else may have.
But why do we settle with our men? Nobody else gains in that situation.
Every one of us that goes to bed thinking "Is this it?" KNOWS that this isn't it. There IS something better out there. But still we settle. For today or for ten years. We don't do for ourselves.
I have been robbed of every romantic movie moment I can imagine. Robbed of the perfect prom. Robbed of laying on the hood of my T-Bird under the stars at the beach. Robbed of driving nowhere, going nowhere, having fun. Robbed of giggling and love notes. I have been robbed of heartfelt talks late at night about naming the children, putting them on the schoolbus for the first time.
I have been robbed of fairytale dreams and happy endings. I no longer believe in soulmates or true love. I don't think I'll ever be emotionally fulfilled. I don't believe that happiness comes to those who work for it, because my work has yet to pay off.
And why? Who gains? Not me. It's not like giving up the last piece of cake so that someone else can enjoy it more. It's not like sacrificing your swollen and aching feet for another day at work, so we can afford the expensive steaks that he likes.
It's sacrifice for nothing. I can see my life 10 years from now. No emotional growth, no shared spiritual experience. No nothing. Just bills, children, and parent-teacher night.
I don't believe in fairy tale love anymore. I don't believe in drive-in movies or homemade pancakes in bed on Sunday morning. I don't believe in sneaking kisses at Gramma's house on Christmas. I don't believe in whispering under the covers.
I believe that I have settled. And I don't think I will forgive myself.
So why do I let myself?
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Day 3 begins
It hasn't been so bad. Certainly not unbearable. But it has its moments of suckiness. I'll definitely never tell anyone that it was easy, that's for sure.
Last night I went to bed with a sore throat, stiff neck, tight chest and a raging dizzy headache. I found the junkie talk trying to bargain with me "Just one, it won't really wreck your quit. Even a puff, it'll make you feel better." Luckily, with the help of a support group online, I've learned already to seperate junkie talk from my own mental voice. I was able to keep the junkie at bay.
My car is clean, the top was down and I had a blast yesterday. I drove everywhere I could think of with the top down, just celebrating that I could, because I didn't need to worry about how to light cigarettes with the wind blowing. It's pathetic how much power those things had over me.
Please, any one who can spare a few, I could still use your prayers. I know that it will get worse before it gets better. And I'll be facing some really, really hard triggers this weekend, so I'll need all the extra strength I can get.
It hasn't been so bad. Certainly not unbearable. But it has its moments of suckiness. I'll definitely never tell anyone that it was easy, that's for sure.
Last night I went to bed with a sore throat, stiff neck, tight chest and a raging dizzy headache. I found the junkie talk trying to bargain with me "Just one, it won't really wreck your quit. Even a puff, it'll make you feel better." Luckily, with the help of a support group online, I've learned already to seperate junkie talk from my own mental voice. I was able to keep the junkie at bay.
My car is clean, the top was down and I had a blast yesterday. I drove everywhere I could think of with the top down, just celebrating that I could, because I didn't need to worry about how to light cigarettes with the wind blowing. It's pathetic how much power those things had over me.
Please, any one who can spare a few, I could still use your prayers. I know that it will get worse before it gets better. And I'll be facing some really, really hard triggers this weekend, so I'll need all the extra strength I can get.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Official Day 2 Smoke Free
I just put on my second patch, which means I am officially entering the second day smoke free. I haven't even been near a smoker, so I haven't had any of the secondhand smoke either. With DBF and roomie well into their quits, I feel a lot more strength than I would have otherwise. I have 2 people who have just recently gone through this, who know what it's like and who understand why I'm moody and depressed. I'm very lucky.
On the other hand I don't think my waistline will like this very much. I've been eating candy like it's going to get cancelled tomorrow. I guess I should just throw all of it away and avoid the convenience stores.
Speaking of throwing away...I threw away 2 opened packs and 1 unopened pack, along with 3 lighters today. It felt strange, throwing away something that I used to worship, something that I would never even waste 1 of. And it was hard to actually have the lighter in my hand. But I did it. I threw them away at the car wash, so there won't even be any temptation to go digging through my trash to get them back. Hey, it's an addiction, and a junkie has no problem digging through trash for a hit.
I'm off to school in a few, proudly wearing my tanktop and displaying my patch. I've gotten a lot of support from random strangers today who have told me their quitting experiences. It feels good.
I just put on my second patch, which means I am officially entering the second day smoke free. I haven't even been near a smoker, so I haven't had any of the secondhand smoke either. With DBF and roomie well into their quits, I feel a lot more strength than I would have otherwise. I have 2 people who have just recently gone through this, who know what it's like and who understand why I'm moody and depressed. I'm very lucky.
On the other hand I don't think my waistline will like this very much. I've been eating candy like it's going to get cancelled tomorrow. I guess I should just throw all of it away and avoid the convenience stores.
Speaking of throwing away...I threw away 2 opened packs and 1 unopened pack, along with 3 lighters today. It felt strange, throwing away something that I used to worship, something that I would never even waste 1 of. And it was hard to actually have the lighter in my hand. But I did it. I threw them away at the car wash, so there won't even be any temptation to go digging through my trash to get them back. Hey, it's an addiction, and a junkie has no problem digging through trash for a hit.
I'm off to school in a few, proudly wearing my tanktop and displaying my patch. I've gotten a lot of support from random strangers today who have told me their quitting experiences. It feels good.
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